Captain's Log:
June 26th, 2012
Tropical Storm Debby is running over Florida on her way to the Gulf. Not only are her winds and rains destroying Florida and all its wonders, it has taken along with it some of the romantic ideas that once engulfed my being. Going through ups and downs is definitely apart of life, however, with the current events going on not only in my own life but in the world around me it is hard not to believe in the end of the World's coming. I used to consider myself the Grand Optimist. Slowly, the harsh realities of inevitable disappointment have become apart of my everyday life. It may be my own doing and my own karma coming back to haunt me, but I refuse to let the world get the best of me.
I am a firm believer in when one door closes, another door opens. There are moments and events in life that have become pivotal in the sense of progression. For EXAMPLE:
becoming engaged.
For as long as I can remember I have imagined and thought about the day prince charming got down on his knee before me and asked me the oh so serious question. At the same token, I have tried my best to resist the urge to have my age be a reason to get married. Let's just say, I now know how strong my will is.
Although the winds are changing, and the the world is shifting, I will stay true to myself. Everyone makes mistakes, and maybe I do more then others, but I will not settle for less than the best. A pivotal moment has finally crossed my path, and I have overcome it. The outcome was not what I expected and my battle wounds will last for sometime leaving behind scars. Appreciating what I had and what I lost won't elude me. My aggressive, reluctant, and stubborn behavior are probably the cause of my own misfortune. However, just like Florida will overcome Tropical Storm Debby, I will move on and venture through the next door that opens.
In closing,
F U Society, I am twenty-six and marriage is not yet in the cards for me! I have been in love, and I will be in love again. I tried to force happily ever after, I tried listening to my peers and what they could only see from the outside. It wasn't right. Not only am I hurt but someone I truly loved is also hurt. Now, I am wide-eyed and ready to see my true fate. I will make my Pinocchio come to life. To infinity and beyond! (If Bieber can quote Toy Story so can I).
Stormy seas ahead.....
