In The Year 2013

    With another year closing in behind us, it is time yet again to recap the adventures had. Scrolling down my list of blogs to find my recap of 2011, I found that I do not write quite as often as I should, (if you agree you will re-post this blog, NOW). Upon reading my 2011 recap, I was pleased to find that I had accomplished most of the goals I set for 2012; focusing on friends and family, working hard and finding time for fun, and most importantly traveling. At the end of September into the beginning of October, 2012, two friends, my boyfriend and I traveled to Hawaii for two weeks. Those two weeks changed my life forever. For the first week we lived on the beautiful "Green Isle" of Kauai. Kauai is so lush and vibrant, it was like walking through a painting. From hiking and kayaking through the Wailua river, surfing in famous shark filled waters, to jumping off of Queen's Bath into the rockiest waters I have ever been in, the adventures were never ending. And the food! The food is never to be forgotten in Kauai.

                           

    Maui, the "Valley Isle" is like living in a Utopia. It does not seem like it is possible, here on the main land to live in a place where modern society and the good life co-exist. However on Maui, everyone is happy. With the surf and beaches calling your name every morning, Mai Tai's and happy hour waiting for you, sunsets that are to die for, Maui Brewing company/Maui Wowie keeping your senses happy, Maui has to be a future home. The first time I put my snorkel on in Maui and walked off the sand at Airport Beach to immediately swim deep into colorful living coral surrounded by schools of fish, I knew I was home. There is no life in the world that exists that can compare to life in Hawaii. Period.

                                      

 
     Now, with the awakening of Hawaii, I discovered as 2012 was a year of fun and family, 2013 must be the year of fortune. Working towards my goals is fun and all but achieving them I believe will be much more fun. In 2013 my friends and I must be profitable. Everyone I surround myself with is a hard working, each with enough determination to become successful at what they do and what they want to do. This coming year I intend to see not only myself but everyone around me grow and excel to heights we could never imagine. More times than not I speak my actions rather than do them, it is time for change! (Wait, was that last year?) Often times I speak about how much charity I could give rather than actually being charitable. I have already made that change and intend to keep on giving. Even with my misfortunes I am still way more fortunate then most others, and I can make a difference. Whatever I put into the world, the world will send back to me.

Where We're Going.....

 

     Let me be blunt. This blog is only written as a means to unleash my inner thoughts and actions that I keep bottled up more often then not. My close and personal friends, which have come down to very few living here in Tampa, know my true nature and intentions. Many would describe me as; kind, giving, loving, generous, cheerful, and positive. Others scorned would describe me as; heartless, cold, selfish, insane, and an over all bitch. To each their own. I know in my heart all I want is true love and world peace ;-).

A wise man once said;

 

                               "Before you embark on a journey of revenge, dig two graves."

      -Confucius

    My past is meant to be left in the past, and I know that now. For example, if I still thought as I use to in my past, I might get upset that my ex best friend is now dating my ex f**k buddy. For example of course. Or, I might be upset that I haven't yet moved into the career position I expected to be in at this point in my life. However, my common sense and now level headed way of thinking after many a bad relationship have thought me a life lesson that I hope never to forget. I just don't give a fuck. Not in a bitter, "I hate the world kind of way," but in a way that I have never given less fucks in my life. There is no time to dwell over matters that no longer concern me nor will prove to be beneficial to my future. If I have not yet achieved my goal career, that just means I am not working hard enough. Life is too short and I am surrounded by much more interesting and profitable situations then my past experiences to concern myself any further. Henceforth only fun is to be had. Drinking, dancing, concerts, friends, family, fame....I want it all and nothing is holding me back.

    This sense of awakening comes from my ability to see my true worth. Also, I can now see the worth of the people around me. Instead of giving my all, as I always do to each new person that enters my life, I am learning to say no. Now, I can turn my back on those unworthy of my time and effort. Games are for the unsure. This awakening also comes from meeting a worthy adversary. Constant stimulation, affection, rejection, criticism, love, dining, dancing, courting and of coarse, the sex. These are a few of my favorite things.


Find Yours....

Debby Does Florida

Captain's Log:

June 26th, 2012

Tropical Storm Debby is running over Florida on her way to the Gulf. Not only are her winds and rains destroying Florida and all its wonders, it has taken along with it some of the romantic ideas that once engulfed my being. Going through ups and downs is definitely apart of life, however, with the current events going on not only in my own life but in the world around me it is hard not to believe in the end of the World's coming. I used to consider myself the Grand Optimist. Slowly, the harsh realities of inevitable disappointment have become apart of my everyday life. It may be my own doing and my own karma coming back to haunt me, but I refuse to let the world get the best of me.

I am a firm believer in when one door closes, another door opens. There are moments and events in life that have become pivotal in the sense of progression. For EXAMPLE:

becoming engaged.

For as long as I can remember I have imagined and thought about the day prince charming got down on his knee before me and asked me the oh so serious question. At the same token, I have tried my best to resist the urge to have my age be a reason to get married. Let's just say, I now know how strong my will is.

Although the winds are changing, and the the world is shifting, I will stay true to myself. Everyone makes mistakes, and maybe I do more then others, but I will not settle for less than the best. A pivotal moment has finally crossed my path, and I have overcome it. The outcome was not what I expected and my battle wounds will last for sometime leaving behind scars. Appreciating what I had and what I lost won't elude me. My aggressive, reluctant, and stubborn behavior are probably the cause of my own misfortune. However, just like Florida will overcome Tropical Storm Debby, I will move on and venture through the next door that opens.

In closing,
F U Society, I am twenty-six and marriage is not yet in the cards for me! I have been in love, and I will be in love again. I tried to force happily ever after, I tried listening to my peers and what they could only see from the outside. It wasn't right. Not only am I hurt but someone I truly loved is also hurt. Now, I am wide-eyed and ready to see my true fate. I will make my Pinocchio come to life. To infinity and beyond! (If Bieber can quote Toy Story so can I).

Stormy seas ahead.....

It Could Be Nice To Be Alive

Apparently, women around the world are going crazy over the book, Fifty Shades of Grey. Although I admire the fact that women are opening up to explore their sexuality and fitting some reading time in, I have to ask why they need advise from someone who looks like this:

Not that looks have anything to do with sex, (if you have ever had the unfortunate event of watching a "Real Sex" episode you know what I'm talking about). Always being the exception in my group of girlfriends, I have no shame in my game when it comes to talking about sex. I am the Samantha of Sex and the City if you will. Even still, when my girlfriends and I get together over a glass of wine to indulge in recent activities, I find myself wondering why women still allow the double standard to hold them back from indulging in the secret sexual fantasies that have haunted them their whole lives. Immediately, after reading that sentence, I know there at least ten guys out there, (and maybe my mother), judging my morals and assuming me to be a slut. I did not say, "hey, go out there and have no standards (Lennie) and sleep with as many people as possible," I simply mean it shouldn't take a semi-erotic "novel" to open up inhibitions. 

Being twenty-six makes me feel like I am losing all my crazy experiences as I get comfortable in my future career possibilities. I was scared of losing the sex in an elevator, pool, hot tub, beach, movie theater, hammock, hotel room, back seat, library, park, club, balcony, laundry room....ect. days.  Little did I know they were just beginning. Now, when I look at a younger gentlemen, young and constantly horny, I can only imagine how much experience I have on him and how much of a waste of time it would be to inquire on such a young conquest. Then, I look at my older friends and relatives, in their 40's and 50's, and although it is still gross, I realize I have so much to learn and explore when it comes to sex. 

All I am saying is, keep your Fifty Shades of Grey, I'll take my Friday night over that novel any day ;-)

Let us not forget...

                                                                  R.I.P - MCA

I'm Not A Player I Just Crush A Lot

In memory a great rapper out of the Bronx, New York, on the anniversary of his death, I will be  recognizing Big Punisher. Some people are very certain that there is only one true love for each and every one of us out there. Other people, such as Big Pun and I, believe that those believers are "player haters." We are lovers not fighters. I am personally trying to shove this double standard in your face and show you that women are now running the dating game, (Yes, I have a smile on my face while I type this.)

Big Pun was proof that it did not matter what shape, size, or color you are, you could still get your lover on as long as you can spit game. I know both men and women around the world get hyped up when they hear an artist that can rock your world with their lyrics. Artists that can make you say DAMMMNNNN! As has been the case with so many great New York rappers, Big Pun was taken from us too soon. Big Pun was always looking to experiment with his songs, working with a ride range of artists such as The Beatnuts, Wyclef, Joe, Terror Squad, Dead Prez, Noreaga, Prodigy, Busta Rhymes, Ashanti, Remi Martin, and the list goes on.

Back when New York was dominating the rap scene, Big Pun was the creme of the crop. Today we have rappers such as Lil Wayne, Tyga, Waka Flocka Flame bringing a southern feel to the scene. Whatever your preference may be, there is no denying Big Pun changed the game.

R.I.P
Big Pun